Go away fear. Go Go Go away. I have so much to do today. I don’t want your thoughts. I don’t want your feeling. I am reaching my potential right through the ceiling. I will reach limits as high as heaven. You’ve been trying to hold me since I was eleven. You can not have me. You have to go. The power inside me is what I know. Goodbye fear. I will not see you again. Hello faith my dear friend.
I’m a Writer
I’m a writer. I’m a fighter. I strive to shine brighter. I feel it,
The Beginning
When it’s a new beginning it seems like the end. Is this the way I really bend? We can never see the whole picture, but I try to see… all the unlocked doors in front of me. God gives us bits of hope and pieces of the Spirit. It’s up to us if we choose to wear it. We are never meant to stand in one spot. This is when we grow..is it not? He is speaking new perspective and a fresh attire. Will you come and sit by his fire? He is calling you! This is your chance! O how beautiful it is to dance his dance.
Trust Him
I started living my life from purpose. I ask myself a million times a day does this fulfill my purpose. My mindset really started to change. I have a job here on Earth then I have to go home. Thats it. Seems so easy to say but I actual understand now. God be dropping that wisdom on me and I’m just like wow! I stopped doubting the Holy Spirit and started going with the flow. Sooooo much easier! My personality goes with the flow, duh that makes sense. Some things are really so simple and then we try to make it complicated. Like is this from God? Is that your voice? Ask yourself is it good or bad? If it’s good it’s from God. Stop over thinking brothers and sisters. We got this! Now I’m rolling around in Holy Confidence and I pray who ever reads this be rolling in it too! Bam!!! So amazing to not doubt myself. I’ve struggled with this my whole life! I still feel pregnant with seeds God has given me. I just gave birth to TRUST. Sounds so simple but it took me almost a year to just understand the concept and trust him no matter what my feelings or circumstances are. At first it was hard but I just kept repenting… meaning noticing this isn’t God’s way and I just kept asking to show me his way. Again it took a while but now my mind has been transformed. I’m really starting to love the process instead of begging for it to be over. O and did I mention this incredible Joy! It comes with the trust. Wow! Don’t forget God is good in the storm. He will move the mountain, it’s a promise. Take heart and don’t loose hope. I love you all! May God bless you and keep you!
Listen Here
You’re rushing the world. I’m keeping you still. You can’t get free when you think you are ill. I’m the only way you can ever change. And it doesn’t matter why they think you’re strange. I need you to write just let it out. Goodbye insecurities I’m ripping it out. Your pain sat so long, you’re just full of rage. The lies you were told while held in a cage. In a hell of a house where monsters built demons. I’m setting you free this is that season. Yeah you got some stuff you don’t know how to do. But I’m breaking down walls deep inside of you. I’m building you up straight from the ground. Wildflower lessons in every sound. You asked me what was love its here in this song. What you think is right is sometimes wrong. I might let you slip but I will not let you fall. But you got to give get up and give it your all. Stop feeding your pain and start feeding this fire. That voice in your head is a cold hearted liar. Your mind has been taught to fear and to hate. You never knew you could be something great. It wasn’t for nothing I promise I swear. Cause you keep on giving when there’s nothing to spare. Stop blaming yourself we all make mistakes. Start fighting back cause you have what it takes. Don’t feel forgotten when you get alone. This is where we meet my heart is your home. You need to know fear so you can rip it apart. And see the difference between your thoughts and your heart. It’s the way that I made you so loving and kind. You’re learning how to love and you’re right on time. The weight of the world doesn’t count on you. It’s only something I can do. You’ve been down roads with all broken pavement. Stop going back there when I’ve already paid it. Something screaming different cause you’ve changed to the core. You feel freedom and you want more
Patient with You
This is the slowest process in the world. Talk about patience. God has been fore shadowing the concept of time throughout the years. Cause it takes time to knock down fears. Watches and clocks. Tick Tock. He told me his concept of time and our concept of time is incredibly different but he wants to make his time our time. Patient but stay kind, in the small cluster frustration panic attacks too. Im seeing flaws and I wanna see you. Harder than I thought. Thats all I see. Should I be looking at it differently? Should I try harder? Wish I was smarter. The whole thing blah. I preyed to be patient with myself. And I get that weird feeling when I prey in his will like o thats the one I was hoping you’d ask for. Be careful what you prey for type of thing. But not really anything. Cause you know you have to be right here in this exact moment to learn that exact lesson. It gets me every time he knows what I’m gonna do before I do it. Like do I really know who I am to the core? I finally feel Love, O God I want more. I forget he doesn’t give me tests I can’t handle. He would never set me up for failure. Why is that such a hard concept to grasp? I think cause it shows myself how broken I am. It breaks my heart every time I don’t understand. Like who set me up for failure? They were all the captains of a little sailor. Some not meaning too because they didn’t understand certain places in different shoes. I’m guilty of this when I get the blues. I still continue to do the same. Out of habit, I still cause the pain. It’s hard to get all these truths when you’ve always believed lies. Literally fear is unraveling what a surprise. Process process respect it ya know. He says just relax it’s all apart of my show. God you know I’m not perfect but I do know my purpose. Less of me more of him. More of him. I feel it. No more doubt. I’m ready for that side of the fence. This one can die out. I’m ready to be found. Yeah there’s a million little lessons. But I’m starting to explore my biggest blessing. It’s freedom that comes a knocking. But my flesh is still rocking. Please take me outta my head, outta of my emotions. I can’t separate the sand from the ocean. My mountains will know your name. And I will bring you glory through the pain. Don’t forget it, when you find the truth. Hold on to even a tiny bit. And never forget who you are with.
You Come and You Grow
Shame and regret are the enemies that lie awake when you want to sleep. How could I do this? How could I not do that. I’ve always chased perfection. It’s not achievable but I’m going to come as close as I can as fast as I can. My way or no way. I had things really backwards. That is not the way God says it is. First he tells me no one is perfect. Then he tells me change takes time. I have to be the most impatient person I’ve ever met. Instant gratification is probably my favorite. I have to destroy that concept. For all good things really do take time. Thank God for Grace, I feel like I’ll be here a while. I’ve only had a relationship with God for about a year and I thought it was just a breakthrough knowing God himself but no there’s so much more than that. I’ve developed a lot of peace during my time with him. That’s fading away as I’m waiting not on him but on myself. Learning to be patient and understanding with myself is the hardest lesson yet so far. This should be more frustrating then interesting. I do know when it’s all said and done the results with be better than I can imagine. He goes before me. I forget that a lot. This is not a race. With patients comes greatness.
Stay Blessed!
Truth 